Mohinder Suresh (
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Quarantine
News had a way of spreading a little too quickly. The moment Nathan had fallen at the press conference, media began having it's field day. Mohinder paid little attention.
He arrived at Odessa fourteen hours after the incident, severely jet-lagged and with a computer pre-loaded with all of the information that the Company thought he'd need. Mohinder had been down this road before, though never with such dire circumstances. The Shanti Virus was a subject near and dear to his heart, though it was far less stressful when all he needed to cure it was a bit of blood. Even though it was his own blood, at least he felt as if he was doing something.
Knowing from experience that not everything was black and white anymore, Mohinder kept his laptop and medical kit close at hand and made his way to the quarantine line with a grim look in his redrimmed black eyes. "Mohinder Suresh," he said, forgetting his title again for just a moment. "Doctor. You need to let me through."
The National Guard service man looked wary before radioing it in through the barricade. It was tense. Mohinder's shoulder bag slipped twice and he nearly dropped his sample kit. "All right, cleared to go in. Good luck, doctor."
Mohinder nodded, rubbing the back of his neck. He'd gone from New York to India and back again in two days, bringing Molly to stay with his mother. After what Sylar did to her, again, he could not risk leaving her in anyone else's care. Not with Matt gone.
Seeing the man, however, after he'd just gone off on this quest to find his father at the expense of helping him with a child they both sort of promised to look out for, did not make Mohinder smile. If anything, it only made the lines on his face etch in more deeply. He stood in front of him, looking as tired as Mohinder felt, ill fitting clothing a bit more rumpled than usual. Never mind, of course, that Mohinder had done his fair share of leaving too on his attempts to bait the Company through lectures across the globe. "Do I have a lab yet?" Mohinder asked. No greetings. No necessities. That's what happens when you abandon people, Matt.
He arrived at Odessa fourteen hours after the incident, severely jet-lagged and with a computer pre-loaded with all of the information that the Company thought he'd need. Mohinder had been down this road before, though never with such dire circumstances. The Shanti Virus was a subject near and dear to his heart, though it was far less stressful when all he needed to cure it was a bit of blood. Even though it was his own blood, at least he felt as if he was doing something.
Knowing from experience that not everything was black and white anymore, Mohinder kept his laptop and medical kit close at hand and made his way to the quarantine line with a grim look in his redrimmed black eyes. "Mohinder Suresh," he said, forgetting his title again for just a moment. "Doctor. You need to let me through."
The National Guard service man looked wary before radioing it in through the barricade. It was tense. Mohinder's shoulder bag slipped twice and he nearly dropped his sample kit. "All right, cleared to go in. Good luck, doctor."
Mohinder nodded, rubbing the back of his neck. He'd gone from New York to India and back again in two days, bringing Molly to stay with his mother. After what Sylar did to her, again, he could not risk leaving her in anyone else's care. Not with Matt gone.
Seeing the man, however, after he'd just gone off on this quest to find his father at the expense of helping him with a child they both sort of promised to look out for, did not make Mohinder smile. If anything, it only made the lines on his face etch in more deeply. He stood in front of him, looking as tired as Mohinder felt, ill fitting clothing a bit more rumpled than usual. Never mind, of course, that Mohinder had done his fair share of leaving too on his attempts to bait the Company through lectures across the globe. "Do I have a lab yet?" Mohinder asked. No greetings. No necessities. That's what happens when you abandon people, Matt.
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Which might have been kind of thoughtless, actually. So it was maybe just as well.
He crossed his arms loosely over his chest, a small hum as he considered that. "Yeah, but you're still putting things into your eyes every day." Matt didn't think he'd have managed that, to be honest, so the short of it was that he was pretty happy for having perfect vision. That, and he wouldn't have gotten to be a cop otherwise, anyway.
"I can take a few things with me, if you can't fit them", he added, nodding towards the packing. It wouldn't be a problem - Matt hadn't picked up anything new.
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If only he could remember how to be back to the Mohinder that had taken in the poor shot cop, back when his thoughts were pure and he was never put in a situation to want, more than anything, to wake up as he had that very morning, Molly poking at him and Matt's strong arms keeping him safe--
Enough of that, he told himself awkwardly as he tossed Matt the tin.
"Thank God, I wasn't sure if I was going to set off alarms at the airport for smuggling in curry powder and chai."
It could be easy again. Once they settled down, things would go back to normal.
"After dinner, I was going to book return tickets for you and Molly. I'll follow in about week. Is that all right with you?"
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Matt had to fight with the notion for a second. Did he really need a whole week to ... but then, this was his home, and Matt could understand the hassle that paperwork meant. He seemed a little troubled still, though, even if he nodded.
"Uh ... sure, yeah. But you'll have to tell her that one yourself."
Molly would no doubt be disappointed, but they both knew it wouldn't be to a degree that'd cross into sadness. She'd been through a lot and was resilient, but she'd miss Mohinder something fierce until he got back.
It'd be strange for Matt too, at this point, to not have him around. But maybe it was for the better, the side of him he'd like to call rational spoke up again. Clear his head a bit. It was probably all the damn proximity that was getting to him.
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Cab drivers worked when they wanted to. Or had to. Mohinder hoped that they'd be finished with that a little bit of adventure soon, too. A regular job, working for a reputable company? That was all he wanted.
Molly allowed them all to sleep in heir own beds, which Mohinder did with a little regret. Having had someone next to him for over a week, being alone was a little depressing. He sighed, looking up at the ceiling, steadying his thoughts so he could actually get some sleep.
Sleep, however, was not kind to him.
Though his nightmares did not involved Matt having his head ripped off, Sylar did come back to haunt him. Matt told him that Sylar's thoughts had revolved around causing him pain, that he liked the sounds the Indian made while he was being broken.
His dreams modeled themselves on that twisted fantasy, his mind already over-active and perhaps whatever latent desire he'd had for 'Zane,' constructed a nightmare both horrific and sensual. With Mohinder tied to a chair, Sylar bent over him, lips close to the Indian's mouth. He demanded a kiss, to which Mohinder refused immediately. Sylar gestured and Mohinder's finger was bent back and broken at the knuckle. He cried out and Sylar repeated the request. On the third broken finger, Mohinder finally complied, kissing the mad man passionately as tears rolled down his face.
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Matt listened to her for a moment after he said his goodnights to Mohinder and Zahra but she was sleeping peacefully. Everything was quiet, for the most part, and he had no problem falling asleep.
What became a problem was the fact that he was woken from the whimpering, the internal terror, the cry - something he couldn't ignore as it made its way into his own consciousness before it woke him. He assumed it was Molly at first but it didn't take him a long time to zero in on the sound of Mohinder crying.
He was wide awake and lay listening. He didn't look, didn't enter the dream (and he knew it was a dream, they had a particularly distorted sound) - no, he fought with what to do for a while until he heard Sylar's voice, or the dream-version of it, and then he reached out without even thinking, acting instinctively, wanting to get rid of every single piece of the psychopath that were left; reached through the wall that separated the two rooms, mentally touching Mohinder's mind.
Mohinder, wake up. It's just a dream. Come on, wake up, it's not real, he's dead --
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Mohinder's greatest fear, perhaps even more than losing Molly (and Matt), was for Sylar to return yet again, to demand these things of him. Sweating through his t-shirt, Mohinder moaned fitfully, fearfully, into his pillow.
Matt wasn't in his dreams, but his voice still carried and was a comfort of sorts, something protective. Sylar's weight fell into him before sliding to the ground, kitchen knife once more lodged into his skull. Matt was standing behind him and a touch of his hand healed his fingers, one after the other. Lips on the back of his neck whispered those last last five words.
It's not real, he's dead.
Fingers so much thicker than his own reached around and undid each button of his shirt, from his collar to his navel. Thoughts of terror transformed into decidedly appeased murmurs of encouragement.
Dream-Matt was just as good as real Matt.
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He closed his eyes, had been looking at the wall in concentration before that, breathed out and relaxed into the bed but kept listening. Something caught in his throat and his eyes fluttered open when he understood how, exactly, the dream had turned around.
There was his name, again, so differently voiced from the time it had been because of his imagined death, now just a small little thing, something wanted. Was that how it'd sound in real life, if they ever -? Was that how Mohinder thought about him even now?
Dream didn't have to mean anything, Matt reminded himself, looking past the wall. That's why they were dreams and not fact. That's why they were dreams. Dreams were harmless, or they should be anyway, but his dad was out of the picture and this was a normal dream, so it was harmless.
He rolled over onto his back with his hands over his eyes and then tentatively thought, it's okay, relax, just to ... to see.
It didn't have to mean anything. He just wanted to make sure everything was okay before he went back to sleep.
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The dream might not be real and certainly, people could dream about all sorts of sexual encounters they don't want, but that didn't stop this particular turn of a dream to be that particular way. Against the bonds Sylar had put him in, the dream version of the Indian struggled so to get more sensation of fingers imagined against his skin. He could almost feel each breath cause him to press against fingers that knew, in this space at least, how to touch him...and touch him perfectly.
A rumbling, purring moan joined the name as the dream version of his roommate undid his belt and carefully released the button on his jeans. The zipper was almost audible.
Mohinder's breath quickened. Whatever else this place had become washed away, the empty lab there Sylar had killed Isaac and Maya was now his red washed bedroom in India. His bonds had somehow been released, allowing his clever fingers to move up into the hair he'd admired in the Moore's kitchen back in Odessa.
Freely, he could arch up against Matt's hands, could enjoy what this dream version of his friend was giving him--
Perhaps those encouraging thoughts ought to have been left out of it, Matt.
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Oh god.
He should - back away, disconnect, cut it off. He didn't want to. Or no, he did, he reeaally did, but at the same time ... It wasn't the right thing to do, to listen. But it was so revealing, a free pass to see what Mohinder wanted, what could maybe be, what that would be like. How Matt might feel about it.
He didn't watch. He'd have to enter the dream for that and he didn't want to even begin to explain his presence in it and if he saw anything he didn't think he'd be able to look Mohinder in the eyes for years, anyway. No, but he listened, and he probably listened for entirely too long and thought about it all for entirely too long too once he did slip away from it all, forcing himself not to touch himself to get rid of a problem that eavesdropping session had left him with.
Sleep took ages to settle after that and he felt unrested and shaky and embarrassed and like he'd done something wrong when he woke up.
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Tickets were purchased and Molly's last day in India was actually to be spent with her grandmother at Zahra's request. Mohinder didn't mind at all and it would give him a little time to himself.
Well, with Matt.
Who wasn't looking at him again. Great.
You know, I will be back. "I'm not abandoning you."
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With his voice.
He'd heard that voice do things he probably shouldn't have heard and he considered himself very lucky that he was the only mind reader in the room.
Rubbing a hand over his eyes in part because he was tired but mostly because it was a good excuse to not look at the other man, he nodded distantly.
"I know, I know." The way he picked up a piece of toast himself was almost reluctant. "Come on, like I'd really think you'd run off now? After all that? Don't worry about it."
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Had something happened? Had he done something wrong? Thinking loudly did not prompt Matt to answer those questions verbally...which meant that Matt wasn't listening in at all. And that, more than anything else, was horribly disturbing to him.
Mohinder slid a hand across the table to lightly touch Matt's arm. They were alone. They could talk, right?
"What is it?"
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"It's fine, it's- it's nothing."
Matt was not a particularly good liar. The way he caught on words at times had an especially annoying habit of betraying him. He put the piece of bread in his mouth and chewed it despite that, hoping the topic would drop, but when he dared look at Mohinder again and could tell that it wouldn't, he swallowed and opened his mouth to speak.
He had to give him something, because he knew Mohinder well enough that he'd think it was his fault. ... which it was. But ... still.
"... okay, fine, it's not nothing", Matt admitted, very reluctantly, and kept his hands and eyes busy by belatedly reaching for the butter. "Maybe. But it's not like- I'm not even sure what it is, if it's even a thing. And uh, no offense, but I'd rather not talk about it if I'm not even gonna see you for another week. You know?"
He sort of rushed through that and then took another bite out of the (now hastily buttered) piece of toast.
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Very slowly, Mohinder put the lid back on the butter tub and, equally slowly, kept his gaze away from Matt the entire time. That last look had startled him with how quickly Matt had been almost violently against it. And the touch, a normal one as far as Mohinder had been concerned, one he'd given to Matt many times over, being so very unwanted, was enough to make the Indian stand up from his place at the table and start to put away the dishes.
What did it mean any way? Because he'd be gone for a week they couldn't speak any more? And how was that fair? Mohinder wasn't sure why he was hurting, but he was. The tone. The vacant stare at anywhere but him--
What did I do?. Nothing. He tried again. Nothing.
"If I'm to be punished, you ought to fill me in on why that is at least." Had he been thinking of Matt again without realising it? Oh god. His mother said something, didn't she?
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Matt had been just as silent as Mohinder during that pause. Even if he couldn't feel Mohinder try to think at him, he certainly imagined it. He knew him well enough. They'd communicated often that way. But punishment?
It made him stand. He pushed away the chair and kept a hand on the table and actually looked at Mohinder for the first time that morning. Really looked, no shying away, no avoidance.
"You think I'm punishing you?" That actually stung. Matt wasn't a vindictive person. He didn't go out of his way to hurt people. He didn't really raise his voice but there was that edge to it that came with these arguments they'd never seem to run out of. "I'm not- Jesus, Mohinder, no. No. Who do you think I am?"
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Mohinder scowled lightly as he shut the refrigerator door and spied Matt standing up. He crossed his arms over his chest and tilted his head forward.
"Though I suppose I do know you well enough to know how this goes." Their fighting patterns were pretty usual. Hissing. Yelling. Matt pinning him into a corner and attempting intimidation.
Go on Matt. Prove him right.
"Just tell me what it is you're shutting me completely out for!"
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He crossed his arms and leaned back against the table but he fixed his eyes on Mohinder. It was in a defiant kind of way, honestly. Almost challenging.
"Yeah, no. You told me I wouldn't have to share just because you ask. Remember that?"
He'd been appreciative of that, so using it as leverage now felt unfair, but Matt really didn't want to tell Mohinder what was going on right now. The thought of that made him want to sink through the ground.
Tilting his head slightly to the side and watching Mohinder with a dark frown, Matt added in a lower tone, "But you know what, if that's what's bothering you so much, that you think you don't know me? Go ahead. Ask me anything. Except this. See if that'll make you feel better."
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Mohinder glanced at Matt with a perfunctory sigh and shook his head.
"You're right. I'm sorry. You're entitled to your privacy. I should not have automatically assumed it was about me." Mohinder lightly pressed the heel of his wrist against his forehead. Perhaps being in this country made him more prone to use cultural cues from his childhood. He even bowed light. "My apologies."
He left the kitchen quickly enough and went out to the walled in garden.
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They normally fought. And even though Matt hadn't initiated the typical yelling match it was somehow upsetting to see Mohinder more or less give up. It worried him in a way because he wasn't ure if he'd just managed to cause more damage than ... well, than usual.
So he rubbed a hand over his neck and shifted an apologetic look to his friend, but there was a pull to his mouth that still told of the underlying problem and some of the remaining frustration.
"Look, I'm sorry. Could we - not do this? I'll tell you if there's something you need to know. Okay? Just ... not now."
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Leaning his shoulder against the door for a moment, his head gave a little nod.
"Everything between us is fine." If only he believed that himself. Nothing was fine. Not now at least. But it would be. Mohinder just needed to delve back into work where even the thought of romance was utterly beyond him.
He did, however, need some space. A week here without Matt would do him the most good.
"If you need help packing or want to make another trip to sight see before you leave, give me about an hour and we can do that."
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"I packed", he said, and he had, the night before. He was settled as far as that went. He shrugged though, and the offer he made was tentative. "We could just head for a walk, later."
Not quite enough time to see sights before they needed to pack up and go through the motions at the airport, but Matt wouldn't mind just seeing what was around, the nearby areas. With Mohinder. He wasn't sure if it was a good idea for them to hang out but they both knew things were uneasy between them and maybe just doing something would soothe it a bit.
Besides, he figured it was a way for Mohinder to offer peace. He'd be stupid not to take it.
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A bit of time to clear his head and read the newspaper was all Mohinder needed. He called one of his contacts at the university and then headed out to find Matt, peeking into the living room to find him seated on the couch, poking through a book. He watched him for a moment with a softer than usual smile and then cleared his throat.
"Ready?" There was only two hours before they would have to drive back to the airport but Molly was still out with his mother and they could just wander around a bit.
He didn't bother to try to talk mentally again. He cared for Matt but he would be hurt if he was shut out again. No one wanted that.
Mohinder did the guiding, pointing out old buildings and symbolism as they passed. India was a country of incredible colour and culture. And most of it likely went over Matt's head.
"When we visit next, I'll do a better job of showing you around."
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He hadn't joined his friend just for the hell of it though and did enjoy listening to Mohinder as he pointed things out and talked about his home. He had a soft tone for it. Probably equal parts nostalgia and familiarity.
"It's really different from the US. I bet you get homesick."
Just an observation. He'd never really considered before how different it must be for Mohinder, to have just settled down in New York after a life of ... well, all this.
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"Strangely? No. Not really home sick at all. It might seem ridiculous to say, but I feel more at home in New York with Molly." The 'and you' was decidedly left off because it had caused problems before and that was not ever Mohinder's intention. Especially now. "I haven't really had all that much time at all to be homesick either. But busy with everything else."
Mohinder's gait was slow and controlled, hands behind his back save when he gestured. It was a comfort to be beside Matt again, though the capacity seemed strange. There was a wall he'd never encountered before and he realised that he missed the telepathic nudging at his thoughts from time to time, speaking to him as if he'd spoken first, even went that was far from the truth.
They ended up running into Molly as she jogged around the corner of the garden on their way back to the house. "Matt! Mohinder! It's almost time!"
She grabbed onto Mohinder's hand when he asked her what shed been doing. "It was a me and Grandma Suresh thing," she said, cheeky as always.
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He glanced very fleetingly at Mohinder but smiled fondly at their girl, saying simply, "Don't worry, I won't."
It was a bit of a rush after that with the usual last-minute double-checking of Matt's and Molly's pcaking, not to mention the passports and any other important items like money and ID cards. They'd pick up the tickets at the airport, so that was one less thing to worry about right then at least, and they piled into the car after saying their goodbyes to Zahra.
Mohinder got to drive. Molly was staring out the window a lot throughout the ride, but she kept rather close to Mohinder when they got out of the car and went towards the airport. It made sense, and her thoughts revolved around the three of them split up with a worrying undertone. Not any what-ifs, exactly. Just hoping they'd be okay without each other. She wasn't unhappy though, for the most part, was absolutely smiling - but the reluctance of letting go was very clear, especially when she practically clung to Mohinder when their flight was called.
"Promise you'll call!"
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<3 Missed you!!!
missed you more! welcome back <3
It's so good to be back.
I imagine, it sounded like such a hassle. /pets
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