seekevolution | Summer

Summer

Though Mohinder didn't buy into the saying that there could be such a thing as love at first sight, the way that Simon Petrelli looked at Molly when they were first introduced made him reconsider and then immediately close his thoughts so Matt wouldn't worry. Mohinder gently pulled her long hair back from her shoulder so his hand could rest upon it, Molly in a bright red and yellow sundress,and said shoulder covered by a small yellow half jacket. They'd both been pleased to find it at Walmart on the drive up from Fort Lee to Maine, taking the long, scenic route even though Peter had offered them a chance to teleport.

Why teleport when they could have more time together and see the country? Molly needed a little break away from enclosed spaces and the forests along their mountain roads in New York and at the southern border of Canada was just the ticket.

Of course, there had been blighted areas, places where the virus had broken out, or worse, where communities had closed their doors and grown violent. They had just guided their black SUV around the problem areas and stuck to rural hotels on the interstate.

Now, standing in the foyer of what looked like another hotel and yet, knowing it was a family summer retreat, Mohinder could feel Molly yearning to go explore...and the eldest of Peter's nephews more than willing to guide her.

They were both the same age. They'd both been without playmates (what nearly twelve year old counts their brother as a playmate?) for a long while. Mrs. Petrelli, gracious despite her furtive glances at Matt, finally gave them the go head. "Show Molly to her room. Gently, Simon. She's not one of your trucks." Molly glanced back up at Mohinder and he nodded.

"I'll come find you shortly."

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"Yeah, figured as much", Matt said with a laugh, but there was always something a little incredulous in statements like that. Cause he'd always consider Mohinder about two miles out of his league, and this even before he'd really considered playing for the other team. But as things turned out that way, well. It all seemed fine.

And was, too, as the sun slowly came down but stayed warm throughout the afternoon and evening. With food, drink and conversation it was easy to miss that one of them didn't seem on top of her game, but since Molly was quick to smile and laugh normally her silence did become gradually more obvious as the meal went on.

Matt shot her one or two concerned looks but figured she was probably just getting sick somehow, so when Mohinder presented that other option, his eyes widened slightly.

Oh, uh, right. You think?

That was slightly alarming, evidently, and he cleared his throat. Peter looked up, amused, but Matt couldn't tell whether he was listening in on them or not.

Yeah, okay. Yeah.

The topic was unapproached for most of the evening, as they stayed out on the deck for a while to just chat among each other. But as the rest of the adults eventually rose to get back inside, Matt shot Mohinder a look, waited for the confirmation to be found there and then halted Heidi with a hand to her elbow.

"Hey, ah ... you got a minute?"

Matt might have been uncomfortable but Mohinder understood at least that Molly didn't have another woman to speak with. While Mohinder could give her clinical reassurances, only a woman would be able to answer her questions. He decided to take the lead here as Heidi looked at them both, searchingly. "Of course."

"Molly's about that age... She's been acting somewhat moody, looking run down--" Mohinder didn't even need to finish. Heidi, strangely, looked honored.

She was a mother, but her children were boys. They hadn't needed this sort of talk and Peter could deliver the other in a year or two to make it less strange for her boys. "I imagine it might be frightening...I'll gladly speak with her after it tomorrow. Perhaps we can make a trip into town together. Just the two of us."

Mohinder was really very grateful and smiled at Matt. Problem solved, he thought casually.

If only he knew how wrong he was.

That night, he woke with a start, clothing on because neither he nor Matt cared to be naked if Molly came in to their room at night needing them. He pressed a hand over his chest to still his heart and then left the room to head down for water.

It was less about discomfort and more about being unprepared and uncertain. With Molly, what Matt didn't know or couldn't quite tackle he tended to make up for in enthusiasm and warmth, but he could hardly find it in himself to feel excited about their daughter feeling down. And, to be quite honest, he was slightly reluctant to the idea of her growing up. But that was a while to go still. It was moments like that he was glad he was the mindreader of the two but he met Mohinder's smile easily and touched his back when they left the deck.

When Mohinder woke Matt remained asleep, the very image of relaxation to contrast whatever it was that had rattled Mohinder. It'd probably be hard to identify, just a fleeting dream, a half-formed notion. But getting out of bed seemed like a good idea, didn't it?

Everything was fine. It'd just be nice to be somewhere else for a little while.

Peter apparently had a similar feeling judging from the way he was leaning against the counter in the kitchen with a distant expression, glass of water partially raised to his lips but unmoving. Everything was still. Until he noticed Mohinder, anyway, and seemed to shake something off to shoot him that boyish smile and greet him in a hushed tone.

"Hey. Can't sleep?"

"How did you guess?" Mohinder moved around the other man, eyes downcast almost shyly and went to the refrigerator to have himself...well. Soda. Not his typical choice but a little sweetness in his stomach might do him well and the carbonation could settle him down too.

He felt itchy in ways he couldn't describe and wasn't quite sure how to, though the niggling feeling in the back of his skull was slowly starting to go away.

Nevermind that he was only in a pair of sleeping trousers, Mohinder pulled up a stool at the breakfast bar as Peter turned towards him, setting his glass down.

"This hasn't happened in awhile. Sometimes Matt will wake me if he has nightmares, but even those are remarkably kept at bay since we've been here." It was Mohinder's way of trying to get Peter to feel comfortable with discussing his own issues. He and Matt spent at Month in New York's ruins together after all.

The quality of Peter's smile changed into something both knowing and fond when he pushed away from the counter to sit opposite of Mohinder, not minding the impromptu conversation. If they couldn't sleep, why not just ... talk, for a bit?

"Honestly? I'm pretty sure that's thanks to you and Molly. You're his focus, you know."

That much was obvious to anyone. Matt had a way of looking at the two of them that Peter recognised since he'd had that look himself. Not so much anymore. It had faded after Nathan, but that didn't mean the feelings weren't there.

He raised a hand to tuck some hair behind his ear.

"But if Matt didn't wake you, then ..."

He wasn't trying to avoid talking about himself, but he knew most there was to know there. Far less about Mohinder, comparatively.

"I use to have difficulty sleeping when my mind wasn't active enough," he confessed, having spent enough time with Peter to know that, though he was certainly smart, Peter was more of the head in the clouds sort. There was nothing wrong with that but Mohinder had difficult relating to it. "I suppose I feel a bit empty. Matt and Molly are wonderful, but neither of them need me hovering every moment of the day. I dare say they'd not like it if I did."

He laugh was soft, unassuming.

"When I was working at Pinehearst, has terrible as the hours were, as awful as it had been knowing Matt wasn't safe and perhaps even dead, I had something to strive for. Now--"

What could he look forward to? Making peanut butter sandwiches? Doing the laundry?

"I'd never seen myself as a house wife."

Peter's expression cleared of the smile to instead settle into recognition and understanding.

"Getting restless, right?" He thumbed at the glass of water, leaving only barely visible prints along its center. "I am. I just feel this ... this need, to be out there, to help everyone - but I can't. I can't leave my family. I can't do that to them."

It wouldn't be fair. They'd all lost Nathan; Peter was the one left. He had to stick around and he knew as well as anyone else that if he went out into a world that was still broken up and damaged, he might not make it okay.

He'd live. But being alive didn't mean you were fine.

If that's what Mohinder was struggling with, Peter thought he got it.

"Restless, yes," Mohinder said, meeting Peter's gaze. "Restless. I want to do more." He'd helped to save humanity, sure, but there was always more he could do. More work. He missed Pinehearst. "I keep trying to tell myself that I'm on holiday. But when the school year starts, we might as well stay in the area. There's...more trees here than I've ever seen in my entire life, Peter."

Mohinder couldn't be happy here. Oh, he'd try. And Matt nad Molly could fulfill the parts of him that needed a family, but he's always been the sort to seek science out first.

It was difficult juggling who he was with who two other people were. Strange. He'd never thought of it that way.

"I feel guilty for even bringing it up."

Peter leaned his chin on his knuckles as he listened. He didn't mind letting Mohinder talk because it seemed like they'd found common ground here, and there was something comforting about that. Matt understood the fidgeting and the wariness and the memories, but for the moment at least, he found peace in the quiet. Peter wasn't going to interfere with that. He'd earned it.

Just like Peter's family. Just like Molly. But Mohinder had that urge to get out, too. It was something Peter sometimes played with in his head ... that it'd be so easy to disappear. He had so many powers and they were all going to waste here.

"Don't be", he replied easily enough, tone soft. He felt guilty, too. "I get it. Maybe you should talk to them, though, Mohinder. They might be different people but they're your family now."

Somewhat hypocritical? Maybe. But it might be worth a shot and Peter tried to be optimistic despite everything. And in a situation where nobody actually was in danger for once it was an even easier thing.

Matt wouldn't understand though, would he? Peter wasn't thinking about that. But maybe Mohinder was.

"It would cause Matt stress and he doesn't need that." Of course, Mohinder being stressed out wouldn't do either of them any good either but the sex helped. And knowing Molly was taken care of and safe helped. "I should buy a computer and work from home." He smiled appreciatively at Peter.

Worrying Matt needlessly seemed like a good way to a bad argument and they hadn't fought in weeks. It was good between them, a little too good. Mohinder needed that friction, though. He felt stagnant like this.

There was a reason no one stayed with him.

His mind wandered. And when it wandered, he was left ignoring the people he ought to care most about. That sudden thought terrified him.

"And I'll be honest, I have no idea why Matt's with me. I have no idea what I did right this time. It's unnerving." He sighed. "Sometimes it doesn't even feel real."

If Peter picked up on those thoughts he didn't say anything. He wasn't as in tune to telepathy as Matt was - didn't really have the background noise the same way, hadn't started using it as a sixth sense. He had to focus differently to bring it out. And he had no reason to be reading Mohinder's thoughts.

So the fears were silent to him, even if they were showing between the lines of what Mohinder was saying. Peter offered a quick, reassuring smile in response to that. One coupled with a slightly teasing light in his eyes, if you looked for it.

"Come on, Mohinder, low self esteem doesn't suit you. You just saved the world, remember?"

He leaned forward a little. Earnest.

"You're both lucky people. What you guys have? It is real. If you want my advice, it's try not to worry about it."

"Oh, it's not low self esteem," he protested, feeling perhaps a little awkward discussing this at all. He normally would have just held it in, but it felt liberating not to have to. Poor Peter was left to be an ear to something he might not actually be all that interesting in. "It's-- He was with a woman for most of his life. The same woman. And he was divorced for very little time before he caught a hold of my thoughts towards him."

If self esteem wasn't the issue, then certainly fear was, as if Matt might 'snap out of it' at any second. It was a terrible thought, as if Matt would eventually get over the newness of their relationship or suddenly realise--

"He's not gay."

Mohinder might have been feeling around a little to see what side of the fence Peter might be on.

Whatever Peter had expected, it wasn't that. It was an understandable fear if you thought about it, but that was exactly it - Peter hadn't thought about it. From what he knew Matt hadn't thought about it. But of course Mohinder would. He was the scientist, the analyst.

Peter's brow furrowed in momentary confusion. Then there was that hint of a smile again when he shook his head.

"Look, if you're gonna worry about that forever, you're gonna make yourself sick. Maybe he isn't. Maybe he just doesn't care. There are people like that, you know."

That'd be the answer to the question Mohinder wasn't asking, most likely. Peter had always felt that you could look beyond those precious words everyone used to find connections. It was possible. It was just about being brave enough.

"I suppose so..." Worrying forever hadn't been Mohinder's plan. He's just figured that he'd worry for a small while and after a year or so, realise that Matt was here to stay. It sounded ridiculous in his head and he turned back to Peter with a shy smile. "What about you? No interest in a partner? You've earned some settling down."

Even though neither of them wanted to settle down, having someone to do it with helped.

"It must be...difficult...meeting someone with similar interests." Being a superhero could have it's downside. And now he was just blabbering on, mentioning the people they knew who knew about and could accept Peter. "Which really leaves quite a small pool. Unless you hid it--"

Tuned in to the conversation, Maury rolled his eyes. There was a reason Mohinder didn't have a lot of friends, he realized. The Indian was annoying. He gave him a little nudge to get him back on track before he filled Molly's head with nightmares.

They were subtle, though. Beautifully crafted works of art, every single one nudged just so into place to bring her discomfort and illness but nothing that'd make her understand. She had no reason to look for Maury and he made sure she wouldn't. He just gently wrapped her sunshine mind into clouds, making her fidget and turn but not scream. She'd get that later.

He left Matt alone and Mohinder with a gentle reminder that maybe he should, too.

Peter wasn't aware of any of this. He had no reason to look for a third telepath. No, he shook his head instead with a sad smile in place as he thumbed his lower lip, clearly thinking back on something.

"I didn't have to", he said softly. "Back when- before all this ... there was this girl. I didn't understand what was happening to me and she helped the world make sense."

Caitlin had been a spot of light in the confusing haze surrounding him at the time. He looked up briefly at Mohinder, then looked down and away, sighing.

"I lost her."

He'd tried going back for her but that future had never happened now. She was gone. He had to carry that burden of knowing that he'd unwittingly erased a person from history. And while he couldn't say with any certainty that he'd loved her, he still felt the loss.

His shoulders hiked up slightly as he thought about it.

If there was one thing to ruin Maury's plans for the evening, it was Peter's sob story. How could Mohinder even think on hitting on someone, subconsciously or not, with the younger man's sorry dished right up to him like that? Mohinder spent over an hour in that kitchen, listening to Peter talk about Ireland and the girl and the future he'd desperately wanted to stop.

A future that no longer existed. And he'd taken her there, completely erasing her too.

They had some rum and coke after that, just sitting outside on the veranda and talking about this or that as the sun slowly rose. By then, Mohinder was smashed, singing softly and making Peter try to sing along with him too.

"Oh honestly," Angela's voice came from behind them. "I'd have expected an all night binge from your brother. But Peter, really."

It left the two dissolving into giggles, though Peter wasn't drunk at all thanks to the gift he'd gotten from Claire. There would only be one of them throwing up in the near future.

Oh, he'd find a way around it. But by the time they got to drinking Maury left them and the girl alone. Fine; let them be comfortable for a while. It was still progress and even if it hadn't been he'd managed the girl. She was his orders, to turn her into leverage for Arthur - no, splitting up his son with the foreign fag he was so damn touchy with was his own personal pet project.

He had time.

By the time the sun was up Matt woke, at first not really thinking twice about Mohinder not being curled up next to him. He was usually there but he was also an earlier riser than Matt so it didn't have to mean anything. But as he got up and got dressed something stung his mind that he couldn't quite put his finger on.

He went downstairs. There was birdsong and life and laughter, and he could easily make out Mohinder's voice, but it had that quality to it -- hm.

He wasn't angry, and in fact had a teasing smile when he located his friend and boyfriend outside and leaned against the door frame casually.

"Guys, come on. I know it's summer but it's barely even morning."

Peter grinned innocently at him. "You know I'll be fine either way, Matt."

Matt snorted and pushed away from the door, moving to place a hand to Mohinder's shoulder and kiss him good morning. "He won't", he said pointedly. It was true enough that Mohinder had a habit of getting pretty drunk pretty quickly.

The sting in his mind remained, but he could ignore it for now. Things seemed easier that way.

Matt's presence made Mohinder grin and as he was kissed, he wrapped his arms around the older man's neck. "We talked," Mohinder whispered, perhaps not realising it was out loud. "All night. About you. And Catelyn." Peter arched an eyebrow almost sheepishly and offered Matt a half smile before he shrugged.

He wasn't going to rat on Mohinder. If the Indian needed to get that off of his chest, he was just going to have to figure it out himself. So, with everyone gathering for breakfast, Peter stood and gave Matt a wink. "I'll have them keep two plates in the over okay?"

Someone needed to take care of Mohinder, who couldn't even seem to be able to stand up.

"Good luck with that one." Matt would need it. Drunken Mohinder was...something else.

"Whoa, easy", Matt said with half a laugh, not having expected to be pulled down a little. He was tall and while Mohinder wasn't using any force there was still a momentary imbalance before he disentangled himself but made up for that with warm hands on Mohinder's shoulders.

Caitlin - he knew about her, but not all that much. Whatever discussion had warranted a link between him, the girl Peter lost and alcohol, he didn't think he could even begin to guess at.

"Thanks, Peter", he said and then added with a fond roll of his eyes, "shut up." He did need luck, at least to some extent. It depended a lot on what he wanted to accomplish, though.

He took Peter's previous spot and picked up a glass to sniff experimentally. Good alcohol, of course. No wonder Mohinder's thoughts were drifting off him, floating outwards without much direction.

"How're you feeling?" he asked, putting the glass back down. "You know you're gonna regret that in a few hours."

"I'm feeling--" His mind trailed off, just the same as his voice did, and after he pulled up his knees, Mohinder curled against Matt as he typically tended to do in the privacy of their own room, not out on the covered back veranda leading into the kitchen.

It was all innocent, however, Mohinder was just taking his cues from a cat at the moment and he nuzzled against the older man with an exhausted sigh. He's been up half the night for a reason he couldn't even remember now save that he had been worried about Matt. A dream? He couldn't focus on it anyhow.

Just through the door, the start of French toast and eggs could be scented, wafting in on the cross breeze from the opposite windows.

The only one who didn't pass by in the next twenty minutes was Molly, tucked in bed and just as tired as Mohinder was. Her thoughts were softer now, sleep easier with the dreams gone, so Matt would have absolutely no idea why his daughter was so exhausted--

Unless that too was part of the whole womanly cycle. He could worry about that later, though. The smell of food was turning Mohinder's stomach.

"Why'd you lemme drink," he whined.

Matt pressed his mouth to Mohinder's cheek momentarily, then shook his head when he moved back a bit in order to wrap an arm around Mohinder's waist.

"Let you? You brought this one completely upon yourself, buddy. What was the occasion, anyway?"

He was genuinely curious, but there was something slightly wary about it that he couldn't help. Being talked about was usually something bad in his experience, and while he didn't think Mohinder would purposefully hurt him and knew he was probably being irrational, there was still that somewhat guarded quality in his tone that he tried to hide.

There was nothing amusing by the way a happy buzz could turn into a sour stomach and skip right through the paranoia. Mohinder's thoughts were still fuzzy but he looked almost guilty as he pulled back from Matt's embrace. "Not...here." It probably drew more alarms for his boyfriend than Mohinder had wanted but the point wasn't to torture Matt. It was to keep whatever discussion they were about to have away from prying ears. The house was large but they were still living right against one another.

After a few false starts on the stairs, Mohinder did have to be more or less carried back up them. Their bedroom was cool, the pillows still smelled like Matt, Mohinder knew, but he chose to sit in the chair out on the balcony instead so he didn't pass out. Or throw up. Both seemed incredibly likely at this rate any way.

Waiting for Matt to sit with him, Mohinder lightly touched his knee.

"Just wondering what would happen when the novelty wore off," he said, burping horribly, and far more blunt than he'd meant to be.

Yeah, that did absolutely nothing to help Matt's ... not fears, not quite, but he was mostly silent as he helped Mohinder up the stairs, not sure what he was anticipating but anticipating something. "Not here" was code for "this is serious" and Matt did very much take serious to mean bad news.

They'd miss Molly some time into this discussion since they'd closed the door to their room, but she found her way down the stairs fine and despite feeling tired and looking a little pale, she enjoyed breakfast with the Petrellis. She didn't say as much as she usually did but still smiled brightly at Simon and Peter when they cracked their stupid little jokes.

Matt on the other hand felt increasingly concerned when Mohinder touched him like that, because normally that gesture meant companionship or a flirtation, but this time it was tentative.

"What are you talking about? What novelty?" he asked, feeling honestly confused before something in Mohinder's mind spiked and Matt's eyes widened. "You? ... sorry, Mohinder, but what's going on?"

Now was absolutely not the time to have this discussion it turned out. Mohinder couldn't even keep his own thoughts straight let alone try to convey them in any meaningful way to Matt right now. Mohinder pressed his fingers a little might tightly around the larger man's knee and almost fell out of his seat.

Broken teeth? Not graceful.

"I get worried. You-- You are brilliantly amazing. The time I spend with you-- But there's just a part of me that feels like I can't be enough for you and I'm probably going to throw up now."

When was the last time that happened, Matt? The last time someone got drunk because they were afraid of losing you?

Never. So Matt didn't even realize that's what this was - he felt confused and baffled but kicked himself into action to catch Mohinder and put the words aside for later. He gripped one of Mohinder's forearms and guided him to the bathroom, where he only moments later found himself rubbing soothing circles over the younger man's back through his shirt.

Throwing up was never anything pretty, but Matt had handled enough drunks over the years to not be especially fazed.

"You're such a lightweight", he said in a soft tone that bordered on tender when he poured Mohinder a glass of water and handed it over after a few minutes. "Better?"

He moved some of Mohinder's curls away from his face when his hand was free but his own gaze was still a little distant.

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For some reason my phone tags never get posted. :(

boo. :c

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